Thursday, March 22, 2012

#diary mooserawk

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera.
Kalau aku buat entry diary-diary ni, maknanye aku tengah bosan la tuh. Dah bosan pulak tuh takde idea nak update blog, jadi aku bantai kana je ape yang aku tulis dalam kertas kosong sewaktu aku tengah bosan tahap gampang menunggu orang. Kejadian berlaku di UTem.

Muka #1
Duduk sorang-sorang dekat cafĂ© tadi. Bosan. Aku hanya mampu bertahan 20minit je. Itu pun aku gerak sebab Nampak ade budak bangsat naik keta kancil plat BJL 9454 letak kertas kat keta aku. Budus. Buang je la..ape la susah sangat jadi orang? Tak paham. =..=’
Ok, sekarang aku kat pusat Komp pulak, aman sket tak ramai orang kat sini. Tibe-tibe aku teringat pada suatu mase dulu, mase first time aku datang UTem ni menyamar dengan jayanye sebagai seorang student. Masa tu sara dengan cimi ade kelas 2jam, so dorang tinggal kan aku kat sini. Aku lepak dalam keadaan sejuk gila, then Heidi text aku cakap dah habis jawab test. Lepas tu aku lepak dengan die pulak. Semua nya rasa macam baru je berlaku, tapi tu semua berlaku pada tahun 2010, sekarang dah 2012, cepat kan masa berlalu ? time tu sara dengan cimi budak hingusan kt Utem, dorang sem 1, Heidi aku tk ingat, aku pulak time tu baru habis praktikal. Itu 2010. 2012 pulak ? sara dengan cimi dah sem 4, Heidi pulak dah kerja sebagai engineer, aku ? hmm..kerja part time kat Utem.
Kadang-kadang hati sebak memikir kan tentang mase depan diri sendiri. Aku seolah-olah hidup untuk hari esok dan bukan nye merancang untuk mase depan. Umur semakin meningkat, tapi perancangan tu tak Nampak lagi.
Ok, dah habis mengarut. Sara dari jauh berjalan datang kat aku dengan riang ria nye. So. papaii

Thursday, March 15, 2012

tik tok

hari ni hari ke-3 start kerja.
3 hari dah start tapi kerja aku tak start start lagi.
lengah kan membace Awek Chucky Taylor,
ade separuh lagi.
akan aku sambung bila ada masa yang terluang.
Sebelum nak start kerja tadi,
mate ni asyik menjeling je kat Awek Chucky Taylor tu.
Damn. kennot kennot. got to work.
see ya later Awek Chucky Taylor. *peace

Sunday, March 11, 2012

Doa #1


Saturday, March 10, 2012

Love Says it All

when you ask me,
"ape saye ni pada awak?"
and I answered,
"entah la awak."
you sound disappointed .

Sorry love,
I didn't mean to answer that.
I was still insecure about myself,

The truth is,
I want to say that you're someone's special to me,
you're mean something to me.
you're not just someone to me.

This relationship that we had.
We didn't put a label on it.
So I don't know what exactly to call you.
Are you my boyfriend ?
Am I your girlfriend ?
 nope.. we didn't label it.
And this is exactly what I called the new revolution of Relationship.
where we didn't label ourselves but we know how we feel about each other.

I am writing this entry just to let you know,
you're someone that I can call "addiction"
because I'm addicted to you.

Thursday, March 8, 2012

unpleasant feeling.

I don't know why I have all this feeling.
I hate checking my facebook notification every 5minute,
checking my twitter account, just to see your status,
check if you're online.
checking my phone every 5 seconds,
just to wait for your text or your calls.

I don't know why..
It seems like you have less interest on me now.
or is it just me ?

If you didn't text or call me,
and there I'll be..
keep on wondering what were you doing.
keep on wondering didn't you miss me ?

I know I have been hurt so many times.
but that doesn't mean I'm immune to heartache.

Guess this is why I hate being in love again.
I hate having all this unpleasant feeling that make me feel sad and down in sorrow.
I can't be selfish.
I can't expect him to be with me all  the time.
That's a commitment that he cannot give me.
I understood that myself from the beginning.
I have been prepared myself from the start.
But I'm just a girl who are searching for a happiness.
And I'm melting by the way you treat me.
I let my guard down, put aside my ego for you.

I love you, that is all and that is it.


Monday, March 5, 2012

Thursday, March 1, 2012

buddies


True friends are like diamonds, precious and rare. False friends are like leaves, found everywhere.

stranger




It’s amazing how at one point in our lives we will be extremely close with someone and then later they will become a complete stranger. 
You will pass by them without a word. 
Without a single acknowledging look. 
This person, who once knew you so well, 
who once knew your fears, your desires, your dreams, your past, 
is now walking right past you, seeing right through you